Sunday, January 11, 2009

I'm still here.

Sorry for the inconsistent posting last week. It's been a little hectic at my house. My mother-in-law, as you may or may not know, returned to our home on Monday, Dec. 29after a second lengthy hospital stay. She is so weak and literally sleeps most of the day. Pancreatic cancer is not a friend and, unfortunately, the doctors have now given her only 2-4 months to live. We're all struggling with this. What to do? How long to stay here before going somewhere else? She wanted to go home this weekend so after a lot of thought and effort, the car was loaded with oxygen tanks, medicines and her clothes so Mr. Pink could take her home to be with her mother and brother's family.

It may sound selfish, but I wanted to stay home so I did. Mainly because I knew the car would be so packed, but also because I need a mental break from all of it after 2long weeks. The minis went as well for the weekend, although MIL will stay for a week. MIL is divorced from Mr. Pink's dad and with all that was going on, FIL couldn't visit over Christmas so it was a good time for the minis to see him since they live in the same town as MIL.

So today starts another "me" day. I plan to go shopping and maybe even a movie. I'm skipping church today. Don't tell anyone. I already feel so much better personally even though the pain of seeing my MIL go through this is never away from my thoughts. I started this blog when her cancer began as a way to "escape". I still want to use it as my escape so I won't post about her or what we are going through if I can help it. I just wanted to offer an explanation since my posts may be more sporadic.

I hope everyone is having an enjoyable weekend with your family. Give your loved ones extra hugs today. Life is so precious.

5 comments:

Readings, Recipes and Rambles said...

I am so sorry. Hang in There.

Belle said...

I thought maybe that's what was going on. I'm so sorry. So glad you took a "me" day. Have a great time. I closed my blog after a little scare I had last night but as soon as I get it resolved, I'll open back up. Drama. sheesh.

Lots of love,
Belle

Mags said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your MIL. It's such a fast-moving cancer and so tough to beat.

Mona said...

I'm so sorry. Hugs to you.

Tippy said...

You're in my thoughts. Email me if you need a friend to lean on.